Better in Time.

This is the day where my hair looked really nice a few posts ago. . .

I really didn't go to sleep at 3am last night, but instead at 530am.

I woke up 4 hours later.

For some odd reason I was in a cleaning mood again..

Since my brother is in New York, I've been spending lots of time con Madre.


Overview:

• Thursday.
  

Applebee's.

It wasn't all that great. I actually wasn't very satisfied with the food there. The buffalo wings weren't even hot! I didn't even wanna take this picture, but madre insisted.

• Friday.

Rick's Roadhouse.

This was actually our first time here. I never even heard of this place. You learn something new every day.* This was my favorite place of the three. The hot wings aka "Wings From Hell!" w a little devil on the side on the menu, were actually hot. My mouth was numb for a little while. They kinda reminded me of the "Runnin` Through Hell" sauce from Phat Wings, except they beat those. I had to sit there and not eat or drink anything at all for a few minutes. And they had fried mac & cheese, which is that weird looking ball on my plate. At first madre and I were like what the.. and then I dug in and it actually satisfied my tastebuds. Highly recommend Rick's Roadhouse for a bite. It's downtown somewhere.

• Saturday.

Marchetti's.

Madre said the plate looked bigger than me.

I had NO idea how to approach this plate, and after a while I wasn't even hungry anymore.

This is what it looked like AFTER a few bites.

Haha.. my turn to take pictures. =D

Okay.. that's enough. It made her laugh though. =)

Then off we went to the stores...

Kohl's.

Walmart.

Target.

Gas station.

So, as I was laying down this morning before I went to sleep, I was thinking about the songs that I'm relating to and how they can actually represent how I felt, or am still feeling..

At first it was like.. "Something Special" by Usher, "Halo" by Beyonce,"I'm in Love" by Nicky B (which has 275 plays on my iPod), and "Sweet Dreams" by Beyonce. Then it was "Long Distance" by Brandy for a little while, "Dime" by Ivy Queen" and "Lions, Tigers, & Bears" by Jazmine Sullivan (doubting stage), and "My Love" by Usher. Then I went to New York and it was like "Waiting for Tonight" by Jennifer Lopez, then "Butterflies" by Michael Jackson; I had those BAD. I couldn't even speak. After that, "Weak" by SWV, "Touched By An Angel" by Lloyd, "You Think You Know" by Corey Williams, "Perdidos" by Monchy y Alexandra, "You Are My Everything" by Mary J. Blige, and "Yours Forever" by Mario.. "Stay With You" by John Legend, "It's Yours" by J. Holiday, and "Don't Change" by Musiq Souldchild. After a while, it went back to "Long Distance" with "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down, and unfortunately, "You've Changed" by Keyshia/Keisha? Cole.. "Don't Take Your Love Away" and "When It Hurts" by Avant. Arguements led to "Moving Mountains" by Usher, "Make It Like It Was" by Pretty Ricky, "Make It Work" by Ne-Yo, and "I Hate This Part" by Pussycat Dolls.. followed by "Don't Speak" by No Doubt and "Heart Ain`t A Brain" by Chris Brown. Now it varies from time to time with this BIG mixture of "Cry No More" and "Last to Know" by Chris Brown + "After the Hurricane", "My Foolish Heart", and "Silent Tears" by Jazmine Sullivan + "If You Leave" by Mary J. Blige and Musiq Souldchild + "I Remember" by Keyshia/Keisha? Cole + "Not Anymore" by Letoya Luckett + "Walk Away" by Marques Houston, "Let Go" by Ne-Yo, "Out of the Blue" by Ryan Leslie, "I'm Still in Love with You Boy" by Sean Paul and Sasha, "Best Thing" by Usher, "Reminisce" by Mary J. Blige and "Better in Time" by Leona Lewis..

*Colors represent the level of "love" we were on. Red being wtf is goin on, Green being hey, this can actually work, Purple/Pink being I love this kid, Yellow being uh-ohhh.. Blue being hurt, sad, crying time, letting go, and moving on.. well.. trying to..

"Be Next To Ya" - Krys Ivory ft. Ryan Leslie

Rehabilitation is ssslooowwwwllllyyyy coming to an end.

Not Today.

8:30am is too early on vacation.
Smashed on Juanita Sanchez.
Killer Whale.. Lmaoo .
14 points.
Aoww.
Blog reading.
Applebee's.
Exhaustion without the want to sleep.
I realized why I don't talk to my madre a lot;

I never know what she's talking about half the time.

Music Feeds My Soulx33

"Better in Time" - Leona Lewis

"Next to Ya" - Krys Ivory ft. Ryan Leslie

"Out of the Blue" - Ryan Leslie

Chris Fucking Brown.

SMHH .

I thought this was pretty funny:

Okay.

Maybe just once.

"But he still has a large place with furniture, and all-you-can-eat food in my heart.."

And what I was just told right now made everything so much better.

"Past affairs of the heart will serve as a guide to future love."

This helped, too.

Gray.

I'm still recovering.
Ms. Lovable is mending; slowly, but surely.
No lagrimas today.
And the heartbreak kid was only mentioned once I think?
I give myself an A-. Only becus he was still in my thoughts.
He's been getting a little too much attention here.
Classical girls got smashed, spanked, and smacked all over by BVA today.
Last night we did the same to Tollgate. Alexia with 35 points!
Overall, the last two games haven't been my best; haven't been into it.
My body feels like it's been slowed down, and my head be elsewhere. :-/
So, yesterday, my horoscope said some shit like,

"...Look forward to an upswing in the romance department. Passion will be reignited with your partner."

It gave me hope.

I talked to him, too, last night.

Before I read the horoscope.

And.. conversation was good. Almost great actually.

I avoided the "us" conversations, becus.. well.. that's calling for an arguement. It's actually better we didn't talk about us, love, committment, etc. I'm pretty sure he KNOWS and completely UNDERSTANDS how much I care about him. So, I don't have to remind him.

Maybe that was the problem before? Too much love? Lmaoo .

But yeah.. convo was good. There were some friendly disagreements...

And he mentioned some chick like 3 times, like I was supposed to ask about her or something. -___-

Highlight: Biting. =]

"I still love him as much as I love talking to him [which caused me to love him in the first place], but I still wanna let him know and inform him at the end of the night, before he goes to bed, that my heart adores him; My body longs for him. & that I still love him. "

My madre asked about him.. Well.. She tried to talk about him. She thought he lived here. And she wanted me to be open with her or whatever.. But I already know half the stuff she's gonna say so..

Chill.

I like making my own mistakes, learning from my own mistakes, and fixing my own mistakes. I'm doing pretty damn good so far. I'll be fine Madre, thanks for caring though. Ily.

Today I "renewed" a friendship I had thought was lost and gone forever.

It would've been really nice to see him today.. sigh*

I've been singing and dancing a lot lately.Which is a good thing.

It shows that my happiness is returning.

Soon, I'll be myself again.. with new principles and new standards.

He just hit me up. 11:50pm.

Jazmine Sullivan is my favorite artist right about now;

"My Foolish Heart"

"After the Hurricane"

"Silent Tears"

My cat swears he's a king. When I'm sitting at the computer, he decides he can just hop on my lap and curl into a ball and get comfortable. Then, he expects me to pet him the whole time he's there, but I don't, so he falls asleep. And when I go upstairs, he follows. Well, he runs as if he's racing me to get up there first and meows for me to feed him. Fat ass. And it's funny becus sometimes I'll be walking and he expects me to move out the way or go around cus he's laying down. Yeaa Aiighttt . Lmaoo .

What's a tumblr?

"DISTANCE REALLY DOES MAKE THE HEART GROW FONDER."

"Golden" By Chrisette Michele

I've never heard so much beauty in a song.

I saw this on Liani's blog and it made me think a lot:

"Sometimes patience is the best answer."

He didn't seem to understand that either.