Trapped.

Have you ever felt trapped inside?

Like there was something you wanted to say or do..

But couldn't?

Like you tried to escape, but you couldn't quite get yourself to move?

Like you KNEW you had to walk away, but every time you tried to leave something kept pullin` you back?

Chingy and Tyrese type shit, you know?

Lately, that's all I've been feeling.

And even when I do say what I think has to be said, I don't feel like I've said enough or that I've said too much and still didn't get the point across..

Maybe thing are better off left unsaid..

But I can't lose him.

"If you love something, let it go..."

But I won't.

If I love something, I'm going to put my best effort into keeping it.

Fuck the bullshit.

My mom says my iPod is depressing.

It's really not.

It just contains songs that represent how I feel and relate to.

I HATE LIARS.

And even worse, the ones who try to hide, cover-up, and sugar-coat everything.

If I ask a question based on information that's pretty damn far from a lie, just be straight up and answer it. Stop tryna be all secretive and shit like I don't already know.. SMH.

I ain`t stupid.

But I feel that way sometimes.

I love him so much it hurts.

I know..

This is..

The part..

Where the end starts.

I hate this part right here.

Hello, Bronx.

This beautiful little girl makes all my days brighter. Even though she denies me when we're in New York, I still love mi niña, Feidy. So yeah.. Saturday night, I rushed around 7ish until 8 trying to get all my stuff together for the trip.. When I got to Heirys, they was chillinnnnnn. Turns out we had to wait for Chito to come before we left at 1130? There was this kid who came with us. I have no idea what his name was, but he wasl ike Chito's nephew or somethin.. You could've sworn this guy did not speak english! He was dumb quiet.. And was oblivious to EVERYTHING. It was awkward... I wanted to make conversation to break the silence but.. I didn't know what to say or what language to say it in.. "/ I find out he speaks perfect english 4 hours later, when we actually get to NY. lmaooo. I knew it.

Wiferrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! My LIFE. I don't think I can LIVE without her.. She doesn't know it, but she opens a lot of doors for me, and I she's like THEE bestest Best Friend Ever. Title is hers for a lifetime.

And since I saved this as a draft for so long I'm gonna just um... post pictures.. and say a little and jus call it a day.. Let's remember this was last Saturday.

So.. we happened to wear the same styled sneakers unplanned. This has been happening A LOT lately.. whether it's with our hair, color of our clothes or style of our jeans, SOMETHING is similar between us.... without any intention. We're trying to conclude that maybe A. we spend too much time with eachother or B. she stays thinking about me while she's getting dressed! or vice versa =] Hehe.. Look at Feidy's little shoe.

We arrived at our destination at about 2:30ish am. I really hate the drive to New York, but it's worth it, I guess. But no sleep took place. We greeted everyone, settled ourselves, ate, myspaced, looked at pictures, waited until everyone fell asleep to do Shaki's hair randomly at 5am, and then I fell asleep at 6am while these locas went to bed at 7.
GOOD MORNING AT 9am! -___-

Oh yeah, this is us dique squishing air out of the airbed.. =D FUNNNNNN.

Where Mofongo?

*Only certain people are expected to get this.

This was now Sunday by the way. Last time we came it was Sunday, too. Both very nice days... This Sunday happened to be the first time I've taken a train and NY bus in my life. Ever.

Superbowl/Family thing at the end of the night. No one was really watching though.. I went to the store with no shoes on and ate madddd MIke & Ikes.. Tummy ache? Yes. Heiry and I also ended running around the block at like 9 or 10pm for no reason.* We literally ran.. it was scary outside. Then the party.. everyone was up there, you know.. partying.

Meanwhile...

We were outside doing this, then some random guy came and started singing and dancing in front of us until Shakira told him to leave. Lmao.

He said he would report this video if I ever posted it.. but too bad he doesn't know about this. =]

We had to leave a few hour later, thanks to my mom not answering her phone, and me telling Blanca the info late..

I ended getting what I wanted before I left though.

Jalapeño Peppers.

I'm soo UGLY today! =[

Last day of midterms.. OH YES.

Thank G I don't have a science class this year.

Instead of going to practice, I went to this Education Forum, where the youth, as well as teachers and other "important people", spoke out to try and make a change and improvement in the school educating system that sucks as we ALL KNOW IT.

It was fun; I enjoyed myself and the company of my friends. I was surprised and glad at the same time that even half the students that were there would even show up. Hopefully one day, all our efforts will pay off and a change is made..

I have a dream type shit.. lol.

So, there was "pizza", if that's what you wanna call it, and these BOMB ass SPICY sandwichessss ! I fell in loveee.. and ate like 4 of them.. Delicioso Papaa.

The reason I'm STILL full.... 3 hours later.

I just ate almost a whole bag of baby carrots too. o_O

Everyone in my house is sleeping and it's only 11pm. -___-

So Feidy tried to come home with me again...

Feidy: "Va a escuela?"

Me: "No, a mi casa."

Feidy: "Noo, a escuela." (Giggles.)

Me: "Noo, a mi casa."

Feidy: "Yo voy."

Me: "Tu vas conmigo?

Feidy: "Si."

Me: "Pues, dile a mami que tu vas a mi casa conmigo."

Fiedy: " Mami, voy con Shanelle a su casa."

Mami: "Oh sí ? Y tu coat?"

Me: "Y tu zapatos?"

Feidy: "Esperate." (Starts walking to go get her things.)

Me: "Noo.. Bye mi niñaaa!"

Feidy: "Noooooooo !"

Bendito.. =/

My stomach hurts.. as well as my entire back.. I'm so full; It looks like an enpregnated stomach.. Not cool. I'm stresseddddd, gimme a BREAK!

I still need to fix Zack.. Sorry to those who have been texting me..

My shots were ON POINT today in gym.. If only I could shoot like that in the game... Speaking of.. I'm not going to school tomorrow, which means I most likely won't be playing tomorrow. Bummer.

Isn't it supposed to snow tomorrow?

Fucking Awesome. -__-

"I think I know what's wrong with me.."

Aaron: "What is it?"

"I have a thing for freshmen.."

Joel: "What the hell's wrong with you?!"

Aaron: "You're not supposed to ask a person what's wrong with them after they just finished explaining what's wrong with them."

Joel: " What the hell's wrong with you?! You don't tell us, sophmores that.." (Shakes his head.)

LMAO.

Relieve my urges!

Goodnight Suckahs.