Rehab.

No, I'm not on drugs.

But, I've been recovering.

I've been putting 149% of my effort into a 504 piece puzzle, expecting to finish it in one night..

It's been wearing me downnnn .

The project was given November 6th, 2008, and I was on a roll at first, finding all the edges, and gradually getting to the inside pieces. Then, there was this blockage, and all the pieces started to look the same, and my "partner", who at first seemed to encourage me and help me with this puzzle, started taking back pieces.... without a clear explanation to why... And I feel like no matter how hard I try, I just CAN'T find the pieces or get them to match up; the puzzle is falling apart, my "partner" doesn't seem to care about it anymore, and I'm starting to wonder why I started this project in the first place..

A lot of rain has fallen from my eyes within the last week or so.

This hurts more than a broken left arm in 4th grade, a foot cut open one summer, a few sprained ankles, losing your favorite pet & both great-grandparents in the same year, the same arm sprained for the same reason it got broken years later, and how I left my first boyfriend, ALL WRAPPED IN ONE.

Friends try, but it doesn't work.

My mom was right; my iPod IS depressing.

Everything I do, say, watch, read reminds me of New York..

..and other things.

I can't stop reminiscing; I can't stop crying.

It's all part of my rehabilitation.

Did you know we celebrate Valentine's Day for the completely OPPOSITE reason it was created a holiday ?! SMH.

I don't celebrate that day, I don't plan on it. Ever.

On the flip side...

Susan's Birthday was awesome.. I should've stayed.

M.F.'s party.. my iPod almost saved it. Almost.

Sleepover @ Drazy's was fun.

"Goodnight Dum-Dum."

Classical girls won their practice game today.

5 more [real] games left.

Zack still isn't fixed, hopefully tomorrow.

That bitch Annie is back though.

Ugh.

Tasha + Movies + Candy + Tiredness + Sidekick + Freshmen =

Boring Fun.

If You Leave - Musiq Soulchild ft. Mary J. Blige

I'm Still In Love With You Boy - Sasha ft. Sean Paul

Last To Know - Chris Brown

Walk Away - Marques Houston

Not Anymore - Letoya Luckett

You've Changed - Keisha Cole

Torn - Letoya Luckett

After the Hurricane - Jazmine Sullivan

I looked really nice today.

Well.. my hair at least.

If the pics upload, you'll be able to see, but until then..

My teeth hurt.

I need braces...... NOW.

My summer caught up to me a little.

I saw a person from my summer, who then hit me up a few minutes later, then got picked up from my cousin who I was also with in the summer, who goes out with a brother of another person from summer, and we all wanna meet up one of these days.

Sweet Coincidence.

I've got nada more to say..

Heartbreak Sucks.

NEVER fall in love.

Never. Never. Never.

And if you do, make sure its local, as strong as it seems, and meaningful before you drop the words.

In order for a relationship to work, it takes two; so don;t put so much effort into something if the other person isn't meeting you half way, get it ?

I learned the hard way, and I'm never contradicting or considering to change my beliefs EVER again.

It's about that time where my nightmares and dreams clash.

Thanks for tasting my thoughts, seeing my feelings, and getting inside my head.

"Blater."

p.s. i watched Juno today. That movie's fuckin` sweet.

Hello, Bronx.

This beautiful little girl makes all my days brighter. Even though she denies me when we're in New York, I still love mi niña, Feidy. So yeah.. Saturday night, I rushed around 7ish until 8 trying to get all my stuff together for the trip.. When I got to Heirys, they was chillinnnnnn. Turns out we had to wait for Chito to come before we left at 1130? There was this kid who came with us. I have no idea what his name was, but he wasl ike Chito's nephew or somethin.. You could've sworn this guy did not speak english! He was dumb quiet.. And was oblivious to EVERYTHING. It was awkward... I wanted to make conversation to break the silence but.. I didn't know what to say or what language to say it in.. "/ I find out he speaks perfect english 4 hours later, when we actually get to NY. lmaooo. I knew it.

Wiferrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! My LIFE. I don't think I can LIVE without her.. She doesn't know it, but she opens a lot of doors for me, and I she's like THEE bestest Best Friend Ever. Title is hers for a lifetime.

And since I saved this as a draft for so long I'm gonna just um... post pictures.. and say a little and jus call it a day.. Let's remember this was last Saturday.

So.. we happened to wear the same styled sneakers unplanned. This has been happening A LOT lately.. whether it's with our hair, color of our clothes or style of our jeans, SOMETHING is similar between us.... without any intention. We're trying to conclude that maybe A. we spend too much time with eachother or B. she stays thinking about me while she's getting dressed! or vice versa =] Hehe.. Look at Feidy's little shoe.

We arrived at our destination at about 2:30ish am. I really hate the drive to New York, but it's worth it, I guess. But no sleep took place. We greeted everyone, settled ourselves, ate, myspaced, looked at pictures, waited until everyone fell asleep to do Shaki's hair randomly at 5am, and then I fell asleep at 6am while these locas went to bed at 7.
GOOD MORNING AT 9am! -___-

Oh yeah, this is us dique squishing air out of the airbed.. =D FUNNNNNN.

Where Mofongo?

*Only certain people are expected to get this.

This was now Sunday by the way. Last time we came it was Sunday, too. Both very nice days... This Sunday happened to be the first time I've taken a train and NY bus in my life. Ever.

Superbowl/Family thing at the end of the night. No one was really watching though.. I went to the store with no shoes on and ate madddd MIke & Ikes.. Tummy ache? Yes. Heiry and I also ended running around the block at like 9 or 10pm for no reason.* We literally ran.. it was scary outside. Then the party.. everyone was up there, you know.. partying.

Meanwhile...

We were outside doing this, then some random guy came and started singing and dancing in front of us until Shakira told him to leave. Lmao.

He said he would report this video if I ever posted it.. but too bad he doesn't know about this. =]

We had to leave a few hour later, thanks to my mom not answering her phone, and me telling Blanca the info late..

I ended getting what I wanted before I left though.

Picture Post.

So, I'm going to state the obvious and say that I haven't posted in a few days... Who actually notices though ?
ANYWAYS. This happened Friday and Saturday during the day:

So he wishes..

My hair's best friend.

My ears' best friend.

Freewayyyyyy .

Madre.

Cheaters.. $$$

Brother... He needs a cut yoo..

Pocket full of sunshine.

Flea markets are crowded.

East Providence is far and easy to get lost in.

I can't fix my phone till' Wednesday.

I wanted that coat from Burlington Coat Factory.. BAD.

I was upset.

Got over it.

Looked forward to New York later that night.

Ohhhh Yeahhhhh .