Thursday, December 30, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
J.V.W.
Temperature begins to fulminate within my body
From the nailbeds on my toes
Breaking through the ice in my veins
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Destroying, exploding through my intestines
Shaking, trembling through my finger-tips
It slows just enough to pierce, to penetrate and then
Easily, rapidly, passionately
In and out, back and forth, twisting and turning
Stabbing into and through that sacred organ
Again and again and again and again
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Grasping my neck, blocking my throat from any oxygen
Flushing my cheeks, choking my eyes, forcing my tears
To fall, to pour, to run, to slide down my face
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Pounding, punching, beating, bashing, hammering
My temples, my skull, my cerebrum
Hypervenilation, Hallucination, Headache, Hollering
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Helpless, restless, useless, worthless
Weak, still, immobile, paralyzed,
Shutting down........
Just as you fell for me, I crashed,
Just as you loved me, I loved, too,
Just as you received me, I lost you,
Easily. Rapidly. Passionately.
"I'll never forget you. They said we'd never make it. My sweet joy, always remember me."
From the nailbeds on my toes
Breaking through the ice in my veins
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Destroying, exploding through my intestines
Shaking, trembling through my finger-tips
It slows just enough to pierce, to penetrate and then
Easily, rapidly, passionately
In and out, back and forth, twisting and turning
Stabbing into and through that sacred organ
Again and again and again and again
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Grasping my neck, blocking my throat from any oxygen
Flushing my cheeks, choking my eyes, forcing my tears
To fall, to pour, to run, to slide down my face
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Pounding, punching, beating, bashing, hammering
My temples, my skull, my cerebrum
Hypervenilation, Hallucination, Headache, Hollering
Easily, rapidly, passionately
Helpless, restless, useless, worthless
Weak, still, immobile, paralyzed,
Shutting down........
Just as you fell for me, I crashed,
Just as you loved me, I loved, too,
Just as you received me, I lost you,
Easily. Rapidly. Passionately.
"I'll never forget you. They said we'd never make it. My sweet joy, always remember me."
Saturday, December 18, 2010
This Stuck Out to Me: "Hello?"
I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times.
I sometimes see you pass outside my door.
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes,
I can see it in your smile.
You're all I've ever wanted,
And my arms are open wide.
'Cause you know just what to say,
And you know just what to do.
And I want to tell you so much,
“I love you.”
I long to see the sunlight in your hair,
And tell you time and time again how much I care.
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow.
Hello, I've just got to let you know.
'Cause I wonder where you are,
And I wonder what you do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart,
For I haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying,
“I love you.”
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are,
And I wonder what you do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart,
For I haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying,
“I love you.”
(@Notes from a Native Daughter)
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times.
I sometimes see you pass outside my door.
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes,
I can see it in your smile.
You're all I've ever wanted,
And my arms are open wide.
'Cause you know just what to say,
And you know just what to do.
And I want to tell you so much,
“I love you.”
I long to see the sunlight in your hair,
And tell you time and time again how much I care.
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow.
Hello, I've just got to let you know.
'Cause I wonder where you are,
And I wonder what you do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart,
For I haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying,
“I love you.”
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are,
And I wonder what you do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart,
For I haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying,
“I love you.”
(@Notes from a Native Daughter)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
I Believe in People Like You.
To be with you, I'm so determined & willing,
Girl, you even got me singing "One in a Million,"
Despite your mind and your friends, I'll do what it takes,
But why can't I stop listening to Drake's "Same Mistakes?"
Girl, you even got me singing "One in a Million,"
Despite your mind and your friends, I'll do what it takes,
But why can't I stop listening to Drake's "Same Mistakes?"
Where There Are Opposites, There are Simularities
You are short.
I am tall.
We could care less about height differences.
You are dark.
I am light.
We like what's different from ourselves.
You wear glasses.
I am supposed to.
We're both near-sighted.
You are an Aquarius.
I am a Gemini.
We are very compatible.
You are stylish.
I throw anything on.
We don't judge books by their cover.
You live with your dad.
I live with my mom.
We have the other parent and siblings in another state.
You are wealthy.
I am broke.
We don't let our financial status get in the way of what we want.
You are a musician.
I am an athlete.
We find art in what we love to do.
You believe in God.
I still question Him.
We know there is a 'higher being'.
You are shy & timid.
I am bold & outspoken.
We have different ways of self-expression.
You don't like to say "No."
That's my favorite word.
We use words differently for what we believe in.
You know half of my friends.
I will never get to meet yours.
We have double lives.
You have a non-stop hectic schedule.
I have a manageable one.
We make free-time, our time.
You would like to see Italy, France, & Spain.
I want to go to Ireland.
We know the difference between romantic and familiar.
You think it's good to do what you can/should.
I think it's good to do what you want/benefit from.
We think it's good to get out and do something.
You feel the way you express yourself is "wrong."
I feel there's no "correct" way to express yourself.
We get our points across.
You put the needs of others before yourself.
I put my needs before anything else.
We still want to help others, just at different times.
Your best friend excepts everything but one thing about you.
There's not one thing my best friend doesn't accept about me.
They're both religious with a pinch of sin.
You feel it's only right to be open (for me).
I feel there's nothing wrong with being a secret (for you).
We want to be together regardless.
You care about what other people think.
I only care about what you think...
It's clear that we are different.
It's obvious that we feel the same.
I'm willing to do this... Are you?
I am tall.
We could care less about height differences.
You are dark.
I am light.
We like what's different from ourselves.
You wear glasses.
I am supposed to.
We're both near-sighted.
You are an Aquarius.
I am a Gemini.
We are very compatible.
You are stylish.
I throw anything on.
We don't judge books by their cover.
You live with your dad.
I live with my mom.
We have the other parent and siblings in another state.
You are wealthy.
I am broke.
We don't let our financial status get in the way of what we want.
You are a musician.
I am an athlete.
We find art in what we love to do.
You believe in God.
I still question Him.
We know there is a 'higher being'.
You are shy & timid.
I am bold & outspoken.
We have different ways of self-expression.
You don't like to say "No."
That's my favorite word.
We use words differently for what we believe in.
You know half of my friends.
I will never get to meet yours.
We have double lives.
You have a non-stop hectic schedule.
I have a manageable one.
We make free-time, our time.
You would like to see Italy, France, & Spain.
I want to go to Ireland.
We know the difference between romantic and familiar.
You think it's good to do what you can/should.
I think it's good to do what you want/benefit from.
We think it's good to get out and do something.
You feel the way you express yourself is "wrong."
I feel there's no "correct" way to express yourself.
We get our points across.
You put the needs of others before yourself.
I put my needs before anything else.
We still want to help others, just at different times.
Your best friend excepts everything but one thing about you.
There's not one thing my best friend doesn't accept about me.
They're both religious with a pinch of sin.
You feel it's only right to be open (for me).
I feel there's nothing wrong with being a secret (for you).
We want to be together regardless.
You care about what other people think.
I only care about what you think...
It's clear that we are different.
It's obvious that we feel the same.
I'm willing to do this... Are you?
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Dilemma.
Dilemma: a situation requiring choice between equally undesirable alternatives; a problem that seems incapable of a solution
Man, I've done it this time.
Friend comes to Classical almost every day to check us out. Friend & I happen to have this flirty type of friendship, but nothing serious (at all). Insider is created based on the type of friendship we have. I proceed to remind him on Facebook. I should've known that it was going to cause a little controversy. A female friend of Friend's girlfriend cyber attacks me. I set shit straight and then receive a message from Girlfriend. No big deal. We become friends, little did I know, she was actually pursuing me in more than a friendship sort of way. Girlfriend just so happens to be the Bestfriend of one of my good friends. We both know that Good Friend isn't going to accept whatever this will become, because we know which road we were headed down. Two weeks pass, I get confronted by Good Friend about Bestfriend, it doesn't end too well. So, I try again. Wish I didn't because it made it worse, and now we don't even look at each other. I asked her not interfere, Bestfriend or no Bestfriend, and she refused. Either way, I'm going to do what I want, and so is Bestfriend, therefore WE'RE going to do whatever we want. We don't need her, or anyone else's, approval or permission to proceed. Although we've come to this disagreement, I'm not willing to lose Good Friend as a good friend. I also don't want to break it off with Bestfriend because she might actually be Good for me. Besides, the only reason Good Friend isn't agreeing with it is because she sees the relationship at an exterior point of view: female and female. She doesn't view it as two human-beings with emotions who are attracted to eachother. God forbid. Literally. I forgive her for that because of her religious values, but she has to understand that people don't choose to be like this; some things are just out of one's control. But what I do NOT forgive her for is the bullshit she tried to feed Bestfriend about me, then has the audacity to tell me she loves me as a friend. "Good Friend" KNOWS very well that I am a good person at heart, so when it comes down to the one thing I cannot control about myself, DON'T PORTRAY ME AS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I AM JUST BECAUSE SHE HAPPENS TO BE YOUR BESTFRIEND. True colors were definitely revealed in the process, and now, I'm thinking twice about restarting our friendship. If it took someone close to you just to put in the clear what you REALLY think about me, what does that say about you? I don't care how religious or how dramatic you are, being fake is not tolerated. You just don't say that about friends you care about just because you don't agree with the situation at hand. You simply just Don't Interfere, like I had asked. Now look. Bestfriends & I, we're still talking every day, we're still seeing eachother every other night. Choose your interferences wisely.
Man, I've done it this time.
Friend comes to Classical almost every day to check us out. Friend & I happen to have this flirty type of friendship, but nothing serious (at all). Insider is created based on the type of friendship we have. I proceed to remind him on Facebook. I should've known that it was going to cause a little controversy. A female friend of Friend's girlfriend cyber attacks me. I set shit straight and then receive a message from Girlfriend. No big deal. We become friends, little did I know, she was actually pursuing me in more than a friendship sort of way. Girlfriend just so happens to be the Bestfriend of one of my good friends. We both know that Good Friend isn't going to accept whatever this will become, because we know which road we were headed down. Two weeks pass, I get confronted by Good Friend about Bestfriend, it doesn't end too well. So, I try again. Wish I didn't because it made it worse, and now we don't even look at each other. I asked her not interfere, Bestfriend or no Bestfriend, and she refused. Either way, I'm going to do what I want, and so is Bestfriend, therefore WE'RE going to do whatever we want. We don't need her, or anyone else's, approval or permission to proceed. Although we've come to this disagreement, I'm not willing to lose Good Friend as a good friend. I also don't want to break it off with Bestfriend because she might actually be Good for me. Besides, the only reason Good Friend isn't agreeing with it is because she sees the relationship at an exterior point of view: female and female. She doesn't view it as two human-beings with emotions who are attracted to eachother. God forbid. Literally. I forgive her for that because of her religious values, but she has to understand that people don't choose to be like this; some things are just out of one's control. But what I do NOT forgive her for is the bullshit she tried to feed Bestfriend about me, then has the audacity to tell me she loves me as a friend. "Good Friend" KNOWS very well that I am a good person at heart, so when it comes down to the one thing I cannot control about myself, DON'T PORTRAY ME AS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I AM JUST BECAUSE SHE HAPPENS TO BE YOUR BESTFRIEND. True colors were definitely revealed in the process, and now, I'm thinking twice about restarting our friendship. If it took someone close to you just to put in the clear what you REALLY think about me, what does that say about you? I don't care how religious or how dramatic you are, being fake is not tolerated. You just don't say that about friends you care about just because you don't agree with the situation at hand. You simply just Don't Interfere, like I had asked. Now look. Bestfriends & I, we're still talking every day, we're still seeing eachother every other night. Choose your interferences wisely.
Why you so HEATED ?!
I feel like every morning I walk into Classical High School, everyone, and yes, I mean EVERYONE, is angry until proven otherwise. It's 8 o'clock in the morning, what could have possibly happened to you that was so bad between the time you woke up and the time you got here? That's only like an hour, two hour difference for some. Get a grip, mothafuckaa.
If an esophagus could be sprained, that would be mine right about now. Last night's game was greatttt. Getting steals and rebounds is not easy. Once you have the ball, it's the opposing team's cue to attack. I'm pretty sure I got jabbed in the throat last night, seeing how it's hard to swallow (grow up), my voice is almost gone, and I sounded like a pig gasping for breath after it happened. It was worth it though, we still whooped some ass, 60-33. Muah.
Fuck college. I'm not going.
If an esophagus could be sprained, that would be mine right about now. Last night's game was greatttt. Getting steals and rebounds is not easy. Once you have the ball, it's the opposing team's cue to attack. I'm pretty sure I got jabbed in the throat last night, seeing how it's hard to swallow (grow up), my voice is almost gone, and I sounded like a pig gasping for breath after it happened. It was worth it though, we still whooped some ass, 60-33. Muah.
Fuck college. I'm not going.
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